Not that bad~

I may cry in last few minutes saying that everything in my life is totally messing up but after few minutes later I realised that I am not that bad compared to others...
I still have a good family that keep on supporting me despite on how naughty is me before, and I have a great friend that keep on cheering me up...
I will look into a brighter side and won't allow anything to effect me for now... Be happy is all the stuff I can do now...
I finally decided on what I am going to do now... Start to change into a new leaf...
Living in a hostel isn't a bad idea like mama and jisan told me.... at least there is someone you can 24 hours do revision with and well... talk to lol... but now the thing is I might have to eat BUN for the rest of my hostel life LOL... but I will get adapt it soon, slow and steady...
YOU GUYS MUST SUPPORT ME... Gosh... I have to prepare to write letter to the college admin head... I have to prepare lot of stuff now... =_= yo!! yo!! I can do it...

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Damn it~

I am seriously worry now... So damn worry now...
I just have some discussion with mama...
I am seriously blank now... I have no where else to turn...
I'm afraid to apply to other college yet cuz' I don't have the money to pay the fees not to mention the registration fees...
Mama.. Say I can try to apply the PTPTN loan again and she believe that I will get it...
Thanks to mama that I actually wanna to try my fate again but after that got one more thing popped out... I might can pay off the fees but how am I gonna buy the book? Pay the rent?
Serious... Serious... I'm in my end of wits now...
I have so many worries now... I wanna cry cuz' my heart really pain.... really really pain...
My heart pain cuz' I realised that my life kinda bad now... No financial support at all...
My dad isn't giving us any money at all... My mum have to worked so hard for us... I wasted her money for nothing and I study nothing... I am such a dumbass...
I really really really... stressed up!!! I am so sad.... so scare....

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Future~

I really doubting my own ability whether will I success in the end of the day or not...
But once I'm about to fall in darkness I can feel that there is a hand holding me back from falling into the dark hole...
I'm really glad that girl girl didn't or to say NEVER leave me alone...
I kind of trying to find a new way out from this problem and she gimme a really good suggestion..
Maybe I really should defer for a while from all the studies since I was really in the mist of confused...
I talk to girl girl that I wanna to change course and she is giving me a fully supportion...
Actually this is something that I need the most..
I wanna to study about Mass Communication and she esplained to me which I am good at and weak at..
In the end she really get what I am thinking... She told me that I am actually talented in taking Broadcast Communication and Journalism...
I guess she is right... afterall, I sucks at expressing my thought and I kinda of lacking of creativity too LOOL.. all I good at is writing anf writing..
Maybe I should focus on my strength more instead of go to challenge something I'm not good at?
I am really sure that even I study in broadcast comm. or journalism I still got the chances to work in Japan right... There is always a solution, it depends on did you find the miracle..
I found it... It has always been besides me but I didn't realise it till now..
Thanks girl girl...

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WTH!??!!??

Well, BIG NEWS!!!!
Takaki Yuya a.k.a DORK is dating!!!
He is dating someone that is older than him...
Hirayama Aya (25) and while Takaki Yuya (19)...
They caught dating in Shinjuku and holding hands in Harajuku...
http://community.livejournal.com/hey_say/1618332.html <~~~ check it out here... I'm not sure is it true or is only rumour but... =-= if it's true this prove that He seriously have some kinda SISTER COMPLEX ;p
or some sorta PERVERT

LoL... end of my report!!!

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Hot Dude~~

He sure getting hot and girlish right LoL...

His new hair is nice but I still prefer the HS7 time the style...

Aww... Chii... You are just like a star from the sky that I wasn't able to catch it no matter what...

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Island Red Cafe~~

Wala... It's time for yum... yum again!!! >///<
This time my mummy brought me and siblings to this island red cafe...
=-= the cafe name sound kinda odd though..
I prefer calling it "Red Island Cafe" <~~~ sound better...
Anyway, my motive to go inside this cafe is to try the drinks!!!! It was so cuteeeee and choooooo kawaii LOL....

Tata... The 1st dishes is Chicken Chop!!!

My brother order it though XD

I dunno is it taste nice or not because I didn't get the chance to try it out...

But the french fried sure tasted like McD 1 LOL...

Hmm... not bad... look kinda really PRO...

And the 2nd dishes is tomyam noodles...

I order meehon but it gave me meehon+noodles...

Nevermind, I am so good mood so forgave them...
It tasted nice and well, I don't recommend to those who can't eat spicy to take this cuz' it really PEDAS!!!!

Finally, move to drinks...

The things that I graving the most!!!

This yellowish drink...

Umai!!!! It's mango ice blended with some kinda popping jelly in it >//<

The name for this drink is...

SUNSHINE MANGO ICE...

It sure suit for it hehe...

The 2nd drinks is my mummy 1...

It has a really cool name....

Its called BLUE ANGEL
Nice right the name??? Even the name I already fall for it...

It nothing special though this drink but I simply love the color...

It a simple mixture of colouring and sprite...

But... Well, what to do I am a girl that love CUTE things...

The 3rd drinks!!!!

Finally, its mine!!!!

^_^ At 1st I really wanna to order blue angel but right after seeing the name...

I straight order it KAKAKAKA....

It's called as FALL IN LOVE
I am so falling in love for it hehe....

Imagining it that I am drinking it together with my lover >////<>

But right after both of my mum and bro tasted it they straight CABUT and complaint my drinks =-=

Comon' it just strawberry yogurt and cream mixture...

It mixed well and tasted well...!!!! (They are alien!!!!)

Ahh..... I really enjoy the food and drinks...

Demo it sure really expensive T.T

RM48++ ne~~ but worth it ^_^

Oddies let's go to try it someday k!!!

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Love her or dump her...

Back to when I was around 7 years old where I am still staying in Damansara...
There is an old lady that always wondering around my area there...
She is homeless, without a single penny with her and also she kinda lost her real mind mean like she got mental problem...
Eventhough, she have this kind of mental problem but she didn't disturb others like what normally those crazy people do...
She would only wondering around and collect rubbish (I dunno what is it for)...
When she is hungry, she will walk nearby those food stall and stuff but she is shy or perhaps afraid to beg for food (You know nowdays... even an old lady they still will beat her up) but fortunately, the stall boss or worker is kind enough to call her in and treat her food and drink as well as prepared the extra food for her just in case she is hungry...
The kopitiam boss has told this old lady that don't ever pick up those dirty food and eat...
If she is hungry she can always go to his shop and ask for food...
When she is tired she will rest in those bench in the park... (Pity her...)
Actually if her children didn't abandoned her...
This old lady won't have to suffer like this...
I dunno what exactly they are thinking for leaving their mother behind and let her suffer till the very end of her day...
It all started during "Mother Day's"... Her children is bringing her to a restaurant and definitely she is really pleased and happy as her children is celebrating for her but she never know that this is the very last time she will see them...
When they finish the dinner and pay up... each of them comes out with a reason saying that they will go to pass urine or pass motion or washing their hand and so one by one... The son, the daughter, the son-in-law, daughter-in-law and her grandchild is leaving her alone in the table...
Despite of holding the faith in her children, she waited...
One hours has passed and another hours passed...
None of them coming back and take her home till the restaurant is closing...
So the worker ask her that where is her children and she told them they still in toilet (naive?)
Without knowing where is she staying the worker can only ask her to stand outside the shop and wait for her children...
She gotta sleep outside in the cold freezing night and the luck isn't with her as she been robbed...
Seriously, I have no idea what the hell her children thinking by leaving this old lady alone...
If you doesn't want her why don't you just send her to old folk home!!!
Comon' one day you will become like your own mother... You will old and when the time really come... Don't you ever realised that you kids will do the same thing as you does to your own mother...

Please treasure your parent as they brought you into this world so no matter how bad or how stupid they treated you... always remember they are the one to give you the flesh, skin and blood... without them you won't be here at all..
I didn't ask you guys to be 100% filial but try to love them when you can... forgive them..
For example, I always get pissed off by my mother =-= and I am sure oddies will know what is the reason... but I still love her... and my dad he is damn useless but I still care for him... So don't say you hate them because you know you love them....

p.s: I know my stories is kinda weird, running out of question mark, grammatical error and bla bla stuff.... But try to get what I am trying to give away with this story... It's not something that I made up It a real story...

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